What Shall It Profit?

A disturbing question
That deserves serious consideration.
I ask myself: Is this present condition truly intolerable?
What if? What if? If only?
Where’s the profit? What’s the gain?
Will I lose what I have if I gain what I want?
A precarious balance perched on a knife’s edge.
Two verities. One coin. Two sides.
One without the other?
A balance in an uneasy tension.
What if that is what keeps the edge on my blade?
What I want is temporal. What I have is ephemeral.
What is the question?
Can there be one without the other?
What shall it profit to gain one but lose the other?
Yin and Yang.
(Mark 8:36 Mathew 16:26)
The world lies beyond these pages.
My heart is within these pages.
I may have just arrived at a conclusion.
What shall it profit?